Made it Through the Night

Well, I made it through the night without crying on everyone. We had Marti's mom and her husband over for dinner and I did not feel like crying the whole time -- amazing. I think I just might make it through Thursday without a breakdown.

I think Marti still has no idea I've been crying all weekend long... What kind of a freak am I? I want him to know, but I don't want him to find out. He'll read this in the next few days (eventually) so it's no secret. But I need him now and he has no idea.