Genetics appointment today. Sonogram revealed no heartbeat and it appears the baby stopped growing about a week after the first sonogram.

D&C scheduled to remove baby.

Booooo.

Try again later.

Argh! Just signed a 6 month lease with a new tenant and realized it expires a couple of weeks before my due date. Nice planning.

Oh, well. :) Can't do much about it now and it's just good to have the rental filled and off my mind - even if for just a little while.

Well, I'm actually stating to feel a little bit more energetic this week. I hope this is a trend and not a fluke!

We go see the Doctor again on Wednesday, so perhaps I'll have a baby update instead of a mommy update after that appointment. I'm not sure what he'll have to tell me, but who knows. It's not like I'm expecting to find out if it's a boy or a girl yet, so what else can he say? "Yup, still pregnant. Eat healthy food and get your rest." Exciting stuff.

I did go shopping for some maternity clothes finally. It's good to be in comfortable clothes again!!!

I got some "miracle pants" from Motherhood and they are GREAT! They stretch, open up and expand in so many ways, it's incredible! Right now it's not a big deal except that I don't have a waistband cutting into my belly anymore! But I think they are meant to last through the 9th month, so that's exciting to me.

Marti and I got a rare treat Sunday. We were out at the rental showing the property and a hummingbird hit a window in the garage. We picked it up and held it for a while until it got it got it's beak on straight again and flew away. It stuck around for about 10 minutes, so we really got to enjoy that.

Maybe I'll post a pregnant pic so those that are far away can start to imagine the belly expanding. It's not too big yet, but I'll share what I have.

Just when I thought I was out of the morning-sickness-woods... Friday was absolutely horrible again. I ended up staying home from work after hours of being sick because I was still not feeling great and was so exhausted afterwards that I just couldn't get up.

I'm not sure which is better: to be LITTLE sick all the time or to get it all over with in one day each week.

Either way, just a few more weeks, I hope, and this will all be behind us.

Marti said first thing he's going to do is spank that baby for making Mommy cry. He's just kidding, of course. What he doesn't realize is HE made me cry by making me think of RYE bread when I wasn't feeling well. TALK about emotional!!!

On another note, I've noticed my appetite is really odd lately. I am always hungry, yet NOTHING looks good to me. I have an incredible urge to eat, yet when I open the fridge or cabinets, or even go to the store, NOTHING sounds good. I know I have to eat, but blah!!!!

Maybe some cravings will kick in soon and I will not be able to resist something yummy. Even my old irresistible stands-bys (you know, that crap food I'm not supposed to eat) are not doing it for me right now. I can say I've barely enjoyed a thing I ate at all this week. Why now when I have a baby growing? Why not before when I WANTED to lose weight? So, I just force it down and do my best.

Tonight is Judith's birthday party. Maybe she'll have chopped liver again like she usually does. I can NEVER resist that!!!! (Fingers crossed even though it's not a holiday dinner...)

It seems the morning sickness is not so bad this week. Saturday I had a little bout, but nothing too bad.

I'm still incredibly fatigued, but I hear that will taper off sometime in the second trimester also.

I haven't gained any weight yet, but my pants are getting a little tight in the middle. I guess that's normal.

Nothing else to really add at this point. I'm just sitting here waiting for May. :)

Well, I promised everyone pictures of the ultrasound today, but for some unknown reason, the ultrasound tech refused to print one for us because you can't tell it's a baby yet. It's just a fuzzy spot with a heartbeat and an amniotic sac, but that's not the point!

We brought our camera and she refused to allow Marti to take a picture, also.

So, while I'm THRILLED that it's in the right place and the heart is beating, I'm so disappointed that she was so disagreeable.

The heart was beating at 146-150 beats per minute so Diane thinks it's going to be a girl now.

I'm still just sitting here shaking my head about the ultrasound tech not giving us our fuzzy little picture. I wasn't looking to see if it had blue eyes or black hair or a dimple in its cheek. I just wanted my first ultrasound picture. Is it just me or is this totally unheard of? Everyone I know who's had an ultrasound has gotten a picture.

On another note, today is our 2nd wedding anniversary and I came home to chocolates, roses and a very sweet card from Marti. Also, we went to Starbucks for DECAF treats and the girl, for some unknown reason, didn't charge us for our coffees. It wasn't a mistake because when Marti asked, she said, "Can't I do something nice?" with a nice grin on her face. How sweet of her, yet how random... Maybe I looked bummed out. ;)

Well, today I was supposed to take the LSAT, but decided since I'm so spacey and can't fully count on not getting morning sickness, that I'd take a chance and reschedule for December.

Good call!!! At 10:30, which would have been right in the middle of the test, I had a bad bout of morning sickness while Marti and I were out and about.

As odd as it sounds, it made me feel good since then I knew I didn't make a mistake by postponing that test. There is NO way I would have done well, so I'm glad I just didn't take it.

Mom and Ron are having a big party next weekend. I thought I would miss not being able to have a drink, but truthfully, I don't even want anything most of the time. I guess that makes it a lot easier for me. :)

This has been an eventful week. Friday I left work early because the combination of allergies and morning sickness really got to me and I lost it. I spent the weekend unnecessarily miserable because I didn't know I can take anything other than Tylenol. Everyone is trying to be helpful, but it's driving me nuts. I wish I could just TELL everyone I'm pregnant and THAT'S what is wrong with me. Well, my manager knows after Friday's scene, and so does another co-worker, but that's it for now (in my office at least) unless someone has figured it out on their own. Tee hee. :)

I missed work again on Monday, but now I'm functioning and the Dr said Sudafed is fine. THANK GOD!

So, I saw Dr. McMillan today and we scheduled the first ultrasound for next Tuesday, which just happens to be our 2nd anniversary. That will be a nice day. :)

I had blood drawn today, so they'll do what they need to there, whatever that is. She must have taken 5 tubes today. I didn't even feel the needle go in, so I think I'm going to like her.

I haven't felt woozie since Friday and the Sudafed cleared me right up. Actually, I feel kind of good.

Let's just keep it that way now.

I decided not to take the LSAT next weekend. If I can't count on feeling good and doing AWESOME on the test, I'm going to wait until December.

I've been so tired, and then sick, and I can't even think straight. I wouldn't say I've got my game face on for the LSAT.

They say all my blood is working in places other than my brain right now, so that may explain why I feel a little stupid. Gosh, is this what teenage boys feel like?

Well, only a few more days until I see the doctor. He will want to schedule an ultrasound right away since I'll be in my 7th week.

I can't wait to see the look on Marti's face when he hears the heart beat!

As soon as we get an ultrasound picture, I'll post it here.

We've decided we WILL find out as soon as we can if it's a boy or a girl. I'm glad we both feel the same about that so I don't have to try to keep it a secret from Marti if I find out.

It turns out that Hannah is Marti's great-grandmother's name. Maybe that's why he liked it and didn't even know. They had a nickname for her, so she didn't go by Hannah when he knew her.

Hello, Morning Sickness! I got up today, took a shower, ironed my clothes, ate breakfast and made it all the way out to my car. I was about to sit down and BOOM!

I thought it would pass in a short time so I just went inside and sat down for a while. Turns out, I had to call in to work because it wasn't going away. I'd feel fine after a while, try to get up, and feel like I was going to puke again.

This part is no fun. :(

The heart should begin beating next week!!! When we get our first ultrasound we should be able to hear it loud and clear!

Can't get enough of Babies Week on Discovery channel. :)

Feeling soooooo tired this week and my boss sent us all home an hour and a half early today! Yeah! I can use the rest!

I'm really dying to tell the rest of the family and friends about our little secret. I'm absolutely exhausted and can't tell anyone why.

Called the doctor to make an appointment today. The receptionist said he's going to be on vacation, so I won't get to see him until 9/29/04. That's fine. There's nothing new to do until then anyway. :)

I was "woozie" last Friday and I know you all really want to know that I yacked for the first time today for no reason.

Marti is tending to me like the great husband that he is. I need to slow him down or I'm going to gain 100 pounds before my due date! I just can't eat portions of ALL the wonderful things I'm supposed to eat in EVERY meal. But, I really can't complain about breakfast in bed and getting the entire sofa to myself already. I'm not even showing and he's treating me so delicately.

I'm still trying to stay active, but also making sure to take it easy. I did some yard work this weekend (trimmed 5 bushes with power tools to make it easy) and replaced a valve on the sprinklers on the rental. A 20-minute job took hours because I wanted to make sure not to overheat. That, and I did it wrong the first time, realized I'd bought the wrong size valve and had to go back to Home Depot, did it wrong again, finally got it right and a part was defective, so I had to go back to Home Depot again!!!! Could it be that the blood isn't getting to my brain already???

I guess it's time to get back to the nursery project. We still have to hang the shutters in there and construct the faux window. Must get a dresser first so we don't mount it too high or too low over there. Of course, pictures will follow...

At this point, I don't know if we'll ask if it's a boy or a girl when we have a chance. We may find out on accident anyway, but I have a feeling I'll want to know as soon as possible. I never could sit back and wait!!!